and those who prefer to be sad alone

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See, the thing is. I have a problem. I always had this problem. I get tired of people easily. Even the ones I love. So I am always running away. And I end up running away all the time. But the people who truly know me, they understand. They know I will be back. But,

I don't always come back as the same person who left. 

I worry I will not last.

It's not about geography or happenstance 
You need to fly and take a chance 
You don't need to soar to emptiness 
And float on high and forever dance alone 
You're scared 'cause I feel like home
  I hear your voice and I knew right away
If you were here what your eyes would say
I have blood on my feet as I walk away
Rivers are red, it's starting to rain
  I'm not gonna live for you or die for you 
Won't do anything anymore for you 
Because you leave me here on the other side 
You leave me here on the other side

- Rachael Yamagata (Sunday Afternoon)