a beautiful omnibus that follows five broken relationships, directed by Kim Jong Kwan

love its indie feel and delicate, spot-on perspectives of love ( I heard the actors willingly

took on the roles without pay in order for the film's budget to maintain its quality. )

come, closer

I want to watch this so badly but I can't find it anywhere - not online not in the shops. such a bummer

meet grace

it's her birthday today

meet earl

meet brunch

meet 12MFC

truthfully isn't the best but it works just dandy

meet 135BC

and they make a fine couple

gear up to take out

why seek why desire why love

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you think you'll never be lonely again

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People don't understand what I truly meant when I tell them "I've given up on relationships." Most of my close friends are attached. I wouldn't say the couples are happily dating but at least, they must feel a deeper kind of satisfaction. Something strong enough to draw them together, to sustain. I gave the idea of 'falling in love' another chance but I was struck with disappointment again. They tell me it was the wrong person. They tell me that the 'right person' will come along. But this cycle tires me and at the end of every disappointment, a little more of me dies. The damage it leaves on me runs deep, the naked eye cannot tell. Relationships now scare me. It requires chance and trust I no longer dare commit. Alone, I am less hurt. Hence I need self-control. I need discipline. I need that kind of grip on myself. Just to know I'm not yet broken. My friends and family will not understand why I have to do this but as long as it keeps me alive, I will do it. 

 I commit myself to change in 8 weeks.

and those who prefer to be sad alone

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See, the thing is. I have a problem. I always had this problem. I get tired of people easily. Even the ones I love. So I am always running away. And I end up running away all the time. But the people who truly know me, they understand. They know I will be back. But,

I don't always come back as the same person who left. 

I worry I will not last.

It's not about geography or happenstance 
You need to fly and take a chance 
You don't need to soar to emptiness 
And float on high and forever dance alone 
You're scared 'cause I feel like home
  I hear your voice and I knew right away
If you were here what your eyes would say
I have blood on my feet as I walk away
Rivers are red, it's starting to rain
  I'm not gonna live for you or die for you 
Won't do anything anymore for you 
Because you leave me here on the other side 
You leave me here on the other side

- Rachael Yamagata (Sunday Afternoon)

heartache(s)

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I do suspect

I am about to suffer another great fall

I will bleed; from my heart it will pour

I was tempted by an apple gone bad
though I came to love very much

who was but poison at first touch.

- Rey

Someone once told me, "You can do better. You deserve much more." And truth be told, the person is right. But usually when we love, we love someone for who they are despite what they have done. It's not so much about who we deserve, but who we want, who we need and who we love. That's how love is. 

- runawaytrain.tumblr

this is what love is. when you love someone, you just do. because...

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we

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What are we? What am I? 

Invest your genuine interest and emotions. 

Dismiss everything artificial. I am waiting. 

I am real. If I fall, I will bleed.

It comes and goes as subtle as the wind.

This thing called love.

It comes and goes with the stealth of death.

- Rey

love psycle

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First you find it so intriguing, your heart is beating its so misleading, 

the want grows into god I need it, then you find it slowly leaving, 

you look for something just the same, so you can feel it once again, 

you go through strangers but its strange, 

and go back to salvage what remains.

- Love Psycle by dumbfoundead ft. dj zo

(click e link for free track download

it's a really meaningful song. go listen.)